New Places, New Faces

I decided that I needed a new job. A job where I worked full time and its Monday thru Friday so I have weekends to do family things or focus on my Elena. I feel like I'm not home enough with her and she's growing so big so fast! Well I took action on finding that new job and I was determined. I must of made an impression at the place I picked beacuse I got hired right away :)! I picked a good place to because I love it! I got hired at a daycare. A daycare where everyones nice and so far everyone seems to love there jobs. Its a great place. I was so nervous starting out some where new because at my other job I started out with most of the ppl there so no one knew anyone. It has been my comfort zone. I'm jumping in at the daycare at the end of the year and everyones worked here for years or pretty much knows everyone so its a little bit nerv recking coming in. Tomorrow will be a week for me. I've made it threw a week! Its not so bad though. The children are great and I know most of the ladys that I work with!! I think that I over analize things because everyones so nice and welcoming. I don't know why I was so nervous. I think that this is going to be a good place for me :)

Love your Church

Every Sunday my baby girl Elena and I get up eat breakfast and get ready to join my grandmother at church. Now I've been going to the same church since I can remember, and I have an awesome memory. Well I think its time for a change. I feel like this church isn't for me anymore.I will explain why I feel this way. For some reason and I prob should know this but every so often we get a new Father to run our church. We have had the current Father of the church for a good while now and as the Sundays go on he's getting ruder and ruder. I thought when you go church its suppose to be a comfortable and welcoming place to hear about the Lord. I feel like when I go I can't be comfortable and everyones so judgemental at our church.An older Lady that sometimes helps give out bread or wine just sits there looking around and if you do anything wrong she tells the Father and he announces to the church in a rude way that you do not do that! We have a crying room and another big room at our church and I think its a great idea. I of course sit in the crying room so just incase Elena crys or screams it won't disturb anyone who is trying to lisin to the mass. Now you would think if your sitting in the crying room that you would know your not going to get to hear the whole mass because your surronded by children. This older women sits in there one Sunday and starts talking to the children very ugly because she can't hear what's going on. I didn't think that's right. First off your at church so you shouldn't be talking to anyone ugly and especially not a child. I just don't think you should be ugly to people at church. Everyones there for the same reason. To hear and rejoice the Lord! When my baby cousin Ryder was very sick and only had a week to live my Aunt wanted him to be blessed with the catholic church. Ryder couldn't leave the house because of all the germs so when he needed something we brought it to him. We went to the Father of our church that we go to and told him what was going on and that we would love for him to please bless our loved baby Ryder. He refused to do it! He wasn't going to bless someone who had never stepped foot in his church. Why did we except the Lord in his life now? Just because he was dieing. No! He made us leave and shut the door. That was my first turning point. It broke my heart when he said no. Another thought that I can't get out of my head and I think about often happend during a church function. Every so often our church has a funraiser where they sale food. We all sit outside and eat and let the children run around. All is welcome said the ladys who were in charge and helping out. My mother and I were sitting at a table when this homeless man walked up and said hello. He told us that he was hungry and hadn't eaten in days and loved our church. He knew that this fundraiser was going on to raise money because he reads our flyers and when everyone has gone home he goes inside and reads the sermen from that day alone then praise to the lord and leaves. He didn't have any money but was wondering if we thought he could have some of the food we were giving out. We told him of course that for him to go sit down and we would get one of the ladys to bring him something. I went up to the table where the ladys were putting things up and told one of them what was going on and if I could have a plate for the man who was basically a member of our church. This women who goes to church every Sunday, who is suppose to help other and never turn down someone in need turned around and told me No we don't have anything extra. Everyone had started to leave and there was a whole table of food left. I just wanted to cry. I didn't know what to do or say. I asked who was in charge and decided to go to her and tell her what was going and see if she had some better news for me. The Lady in charge who I knew really well smiled at me and gave me a piece of cake, 4 sandwiches and 2 bottles of water. She told me if he needed anything else just to ask. The man was very gratful and seeing him smile made me feel so sad. I wasn't sad for the man but sad that someone from our church would turn someone down like that and be so ugly to someone in need. What I'm trying to get at here is this church that I have gone to my whole life basically doesn't make me feel good. Joel Olsteen says you should love your church and be comfortable there and if your not you should go find a church that makes you feel good! Makes you feel like you belong even if its outside your religion. I want to find that church where I fit in. That church that I can say Wow I'm proud to be a member here. A church where I can be proud to raise my daughter in. But now comes the hard part. How do you find a good church for you? How do you know how to search for this church? Anyone have any ideas....or know of a good church? This is where I am stuck. Where I am lost and don't know how or where to start. I sit at home on sunday nights and watch Joel Olsteens sermen and smile and wish I could find a church like his. Everything he says you can relate to and understand. I'm not giving up hope. Elena and I will find our comfortable, welcoming church soon.....

Lent

Every year when your catholic you go threw a process where you give up something for Lent. 40 days and 40 nights is how long it lasts. I thought hard about it this year. I was going to give up something I really loved this year so I thought long and hard and decided that I was going to give up soda. My one source of caffeine, the love of my life. Threw the whole process I never noticed how many ppl drink so much soda!! It drove me crazy!! I almost slipt once but I held stronge and said nnooo soda!! Yesturday being Easter ment Lent was over and you could have whatever you gave up. Yay for me! I couldn't wait to get a huge soda and drink it all!! I thought since I hadn't had it in so long that when I took my first drink it would just be amazing! My taste buds would just dance. My headakes would finally go away and my love for caffeine would just complete me again! I woke up Easter morning got dressed and went to Walmart and bought a 12 pack of Dr Pepper. I couldn't wait to get home and end my headake that lasted for weeks. Finally have my caffeine that helps me threw the day.( Also just a note I know there's caffeine in tea but I don't like tea yuk!) I got home poored me a glass with ice and took my first drink. Now I wasn't expecting firewrks or anything but I thought it would be the best drink ever!! It was the same :/ but I can say that my headakes stopped and so did my mood swings! Sso watch out ppl I'm back :)